Today was the day I went over the results of my recent blood work with my Lady Doc. To say I was shocked by the results is putting it mildly. An infectious blood panel turned up a couple of nasty infections lurking in this ole body of mine - one bacterial and one viral. I don't like this one bit. I especially don't like that I've been to so many doctors INCLUDING an infectious disease specialist and not a single one of them ever did a blood test to see if there was something going on in addition to my fibro and fatigue. As a matter of fact, the infectious disease specialist treated me like a slab of meat and told me I needed to see a sleep doctor because I was sleep deprived. Well, I was sleep deprived - but he never even suggested that we look for something else - and he was the specialist!
I don't have any idea of how long these bugs have been floating around in my body. I do know that whatever I have done to try to manage my fibro and fatigue it has gotten progressively worse. Each year I seem to feel less and less well than I did the year before, and each year I find myself more limited than I used to be. I suppose it doesn't matter how long this has been around but I want it GONE! I have been working so hard on this recovery process and I want to see some results. Today felt like a bit of a setback. I got some good news and some bad news. The good news is that we found the hidden infections. The bad news is that I have hidden infections. I'm still a little numb and shocked at how high my numbers were on these tests. My Lady Doc called them alarming. From my perspective I would have to agree.
So where do we go from here? Well, I start treatment immediately for the bacterial infection and after that starts to turn around we'll work on the other. From what I can gather, a person can get pretty sick from the treatment of these infections and I just hate the thought of going backward. My Doc's plan is to minimize the probability of that. I planned on taking some time away from the cold and this may just be the perfect time to pamper myself a bit. I've got to pull myself together and use my emotional, mental, spiritual and physical strength to take this on. I've called in my support system have gotten wonderful emotional nurturing. Tonight I'm going to say an extra prayer for protection and healing and I will send a prayer out to everyone else who is grappling with a condition that gets in the way of their full expression. I used to say I'm a lover, not a fighter - but I think for now I'll be both!
I don't have any idea of how long these bugs have been floating around in my body. I do know that whatever I have done to try to manage my fibro and fatigue it has gotten progressively worse. Each year I seem to feel less and less well than I did the year before, and each year I find myself more limited than I used to be. I suppose it doesn't matter how long this has been around but I want it GONE! I have been working so hard on this recovery process and I want to see some results. Today felt like a bit of a setback. I got some good news and some bad news. The good news is that we found the hidden infections. The bad news is that I have hidden infections. I'm still a little numb and shocked at how high my numbers were on these tests. My Lady Doc called them alarming. From my perspective I would have to agree.
So where do we go from here? Well, I start treatment immediately for the bacterial infection and after that starts to turn around we'll work on the other. From what I can gather, a person can get pretty sick from the treatment of these infections and I just hate the thought of going backward. My Doc's plan is to minimize the probability of that. I planned on taking some time away from the cold and this may just be the perfect time to pamper myself a bit. I've got to pull myself together and use my emotional, mental, spiritual and physical strength to take this on. I've called in my support system have gotten wonderful emotional nurturing. Tonight I'm going to say an extra prayer for protection and healing and I will send a prayer out to everyone else who is grappling with a condition that gets in the way of their full expression. I used to say I'm a lover, not a fighter - but I think for now I'll be both!
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